Updated: Feb 1, 2021
Recently we found out we were pregnant and this made us make a decision to stop breastfeeding at 19months postpartum.
To say this decision was hard, is an understatement. I had spent most of my pregnancy and postpartum telling myself that I would be allowing our beautiful daughter to self-wean, and so I thought our journey would continue to at least the age of 2 or 3.
Sometimes it's tough being a #mother but you can still find ways to work #kindfully through the hard times. Not only for your children, but also for yourself.
However, we were blessed with the news that we were pregnant with our second daughter late last year. I battled with trying to continue to breastfeed but it hit a point where I could no longer continue for my health and wellbeing.
At 18 months old, my daughter was still co-sleeping (or should I say, making me spoon her every night, all night without a doubt (I love it!)). But when I got pregnant, my milk supply dropped dramatically and so my 18month old went from waking a couple of times a night, to at least 6-10 times a night. I was exhausted!
On top of this, my boobs were very sore (as most women experience in early pregnancy days) and they began to blister and crack. I tried pushing through with all my might, until one day I realised how little sleep I was getting, how little energy I had and I even looked in the mirror and felt like I was Bella from Twilight when she was pregnant. (So pretty scary looking)! It affected everything I did and I knew that for my health, my 18 month olds health and my unborn Childs health - it needed to stop.
I had to figure out a way to parent my child and myself through this huge transition kindfully. The first night was the hardest, I had decided that the best option for us was to give Norah formula as a replacement. I started by removing feeding at the begining of the night and replacing it with the bottle. She cried so hard, and I held her so tight. I explained softly to her the reasons mummy was doing what she was doing. I assured her that her feelings were valid and I was sorry she was feeling that way. She refused the bottle and screamed for boobie, but I had to stay strong. So I cuddled her some more and I sang her songs, patted her bottom, cried a little with her and we finally broke through. She took little sips of the bottle and then fell asleep in my arms.
From there, we continued #weaning through the night, I would cut one feed out and replace it with a bottle until we no longer had any more boob feeds. By the end of the transition my nipples were completely broken. However, my daughter was comforted, supported and loved the whole way through. I made sure I created time each night to do all I could to remain calm, to pour love into her and to remind myself why I was doing this. We now continue to cuddle all night long, but instead she wakes and takes a bottle and my incredible hubby-to-be fetches us a new one while I snuggle her back to sleep! Sometimes it's tough being a #mother but you can still find ways to work #kindfully through the hard times. Not only for your children, but also for yourself.